ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY WITH LVAD

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on." Robert Frost

Funny thing about life, it does go on, regardless of what I may or may not do. The last part being the crucial piece: “regardless of what I might do”. I have been blessed, truly blessed with a fabulous medical team, spouse, family, friends. Without them, I truly would not be here and life would not be “going on” as we generally define it. I do believe life goes on beyond the physical encasement we call a body, and therefore life would go on whether it be as we know it today, or in a different form or dimension tomorrow.
I frequently thank about the lives we live. Even within this physical dimension, we live multiple lives. Are “private or personal life”, our public life, the life we live with a spouse or special, and on and on. I would even venture to say we live different lives at different stages of our life.
I had a 50/50 chance of making to today and there is a 1 in 4.5 chance of me making it another year. Most of the time I it a day at a time; sometimes it is only a moment at a time. Having had to focus on goals and objective work wise for so long, I feel like I need to define my next goal, objective, milestone, or barrier I wish to break. I do have a few things on my bucket list, but not much I guess.
Probably the one that grabs me most at the moment would be to get my motorcycle driver’s certification, license, and then purchase a cycle. It would be great to get a second set of wheels in the house as it would make things a little easier instead of always taking my partner to work so I can have the car. I mean most of the time it does matter much, but it does hinder a certain amount of spontaneity in my life. Besides I have always wanted to get one again from the time I sold my last one.
It certainly would make it easier to solve my cabin fever at times. Whether it is to go to the store, the library, or to meet a friend for coffee or lunch; it means me making 3 trips in the car. 1) Take Don to work, 2) to actual go to lunch, and then 3) pick Don up from work. Fortunately, we do live close to his job; so it probly is more of an inconvenience than anything. Public transit is so cumbersome here in LA. It is not like NYC, Washington DC, or Atlanta. LA is just so spread out multiple transfers with bus and/or subway. With my own transportation, it would be so much easier to get up and go. Of course I also could use the excuse that it would still be economical, and we would have better luck making room in the garage for it.
I think it also will do a lot for my self esteem to have my own wheels again. So getting a cycle would solve a couple of minor problems and be fun at the same time. And at this point in my life, I do not see anything wrong with that. Regardless, life will go on.

More to come,
Namasté